Change is often difficult. It is especially hard for me. I complained loudly to the fitness director at my neighborhood gym about their yoga classes being non-traditional because I had become accustomed to practicing in styles taught by more traditional schools of yoga. I even called some of the classes "yogarcize". But eventually I gave in and settled into a rountine practicing 5 days a week. I was fortunate because the proximity of the gym made it easier for me to be regular and I was lucky to find at least two teachers that taught in the traditional styles - one Ashtanga and the other Iyengar. And then it happened again - change. The club cancelled my anchor wednesday morning 7 am Ashtanga class. I was very upset because it shook the ground beneath my feet. I knew that I had to start anew....brand new teacher, different location, new faces. I reflected on my strong reaction to this event only to realize that it is in my nature or rather "conditioning" to become attached, to be fearful of change, and anxious about new experiences.
I am "kicking this habit" and many other patterns of behavior that keep me going around in circles like a hampster on a wheel. You can only change something if you are first aware of its occurrence....the witness I talked about in my earlier post 104. My suggestion of honing into this awareness of Self through the practice of yoga is to practice at the same time at least 3-5 times a week, same style, same teacher - preferably Mysore Style or Self practice so you can begin to observe subtle patterns held in the body and slowly begin to connect the dots.....
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